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http://forums.thekvlt.com/showthread.php?t=10344&page=1&pp=10

Click on the link there cuz i tried to put it in this journal but its being stupid.

yeah i'm lame and all i have is links.

http://www.buzznet.com/tags/fftl/video/169646/

yeah pretty damn weird.

Yeah this is the last one sry. I just lost my love for writing my stories and i don't have time, but there might be a new one........so ya never know XD

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    As i entered the room, everyone was there. Staring at me in my froggy pajama's. I ran back but ran into the wall. "Damn!" i said holing my head. "Why did u tell me to come in here?" i asked matt who appeared beside me.

 "Cuz"

"Cuz why?"

"Just cuz"

"fine, well i'm going back to sleep" i headed back towards the bunks, but my arm was grasped by more than 2 hands.

"NO!!!" they all screamed in my face. Now i was curious.

"Give me one good reason why i should" they all pointed at the door. "Can i change?"

"nope" was all matt said, then i was shoved out the door.

There was a HUGE crowd around me, they all screamed and ran towards me. My record only came out like a week ago, how could they be my fans already. But they were. They asked for my autograph and picture, it was weird.  But i gave them gladly. After a while i went back inside the bus.

"Thats what u woke me up for" i asked, but they said no.

I was confused even more now

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a few hours later we all went to this club. Lets just say, i got buzzed.

"Ur not driving are u?" said some random person.

"offfcourssseee i ammmmmmm" i slurred.

"I don't think so" Matt came behindme and took my keys. I was so drunk i didn't know my actions. I slapped him, he looked shocked.

"nnnnooooooo u don't " i grabbed the keys back and ran, or well tried to. 

I reached my car and got in it and started to drive. I could feel myself slipping away........ then everything went black.

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*Beeep*

*beeep*

*beep*

I woke up to an enormous amount of light.

"Dude she's awake"  I heard sumone say.

A figure cam into my veiw, it was matt.

"w-what happened?" i sheilded my eyes. 

"You drove.....drunk." he paused for a second. "I tried to stop u but u slapped me and told me u hated me......." he looked down.

Great now i feel like shit.

"I'm sry i didn't mean to, u know i didn't mean it....." he didn't even look up. "you do beleive me don't u?"

He shrugged. I could feel that 'i'm about to cry' feeling in my throat.

"U don't beleive me..........but i was drunk, i don't mean anything when i'm drunk..."i was practically begging over nothing.

He looked into my eyes as if he was looking to see if i was telling the truth. All of a sudden i heard a long beep. Everything went blurry, the black.

*******Open POV*******

"oh my god is she alive?" the younf girl screamed, rushing over to the limp body.

"I-i-i don't know" Matt backed away slowly.

I flood of nurses rushed in and shook the body......... nothing.

"Please leave the room!" the blonde headed nurse commanded. They did as they were told.

About an hour passed. A different nurse entered the waiting room with a blank look on her face. "Mr. Good?" Matt stood up. "yes"  She just stood there not wanting to say the words that were to come out of her purched lips. Tension grew and Matt couldn't stand it. "yes?" he asked again.

"I'm sorry to inform u, but" She looked at her folder. "oh, yes. *cough* Casey didn't make it. We are sorry, we did all that we could."

The room seemed to get colder, and hearts sank.

"thank you..." he said quietly and sat down with his head in his hands.

As the nurse was leaving the room matt blurted out. "What did she die from?"

She was shocked at his question but amswered it with ease.

"A broken heart"

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Yeah its a pretty dead ending but, everything has to end. Right? Anywhoo, i was just ending it cuz i feel that i hav lost like 90% of my readers, and i never get to write anymore.

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I am soooooo...... sorry that it took this long. I just didn't have much time. If any of my readers have any ideas, please tell me. Cuz i'm running out.

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       WAM!!! “Owe!” Derek said clenching his stomache. “well i told you to shut up or else.
Welcome to else.” I said back to him, causing everyone else to laugh.  He then stood up,
looking like he had an idea. “Matt why don’t you tell them?” Derek said slyly.
       “Huh, what?” Matt asked as if he just snapped back into reality. I felt my eyes
narrow.  Derek smirked. ‘what did he have against me? i never did anything to him.’  i
though to myself. “You know, your little make-out session?” he grinned.. 
       “Um...” Matt looked questionately at me, I shrugged. “What about it?” he asked
as if it was nothing.
        “Well...” he seemed to lose his idea, “Whatever, they’re together.” he finished
quickly then ran away, out the door.
          All eyes went straight to me, I turned blood red.  “Uh... yeah... I gotta go......” I
slowly went out the door. I leaned against the cold temperary wall and waited. For what? I
wasn’t really sure. I could hear the low murmur of loud questions from the other side of
the wall.
          I began to walk again, I couldn’t really go back to my bus, so i went to From First
To Last’s bus. As soon as i walked in, i was greeted by my most favorite person in the
world - Derek.
           “Why are you here?” he asked rudely.  “Cuz I have nowhere else to go” I looked
at the floor.  “What about your...uh bus?” he said back, this time without the atitude.
“You kind of fixed that for me. Matt’s basically drowning in questions.” The was an
awkward pause after that, The i just had to ask, “Why do you hate me?” he looked
shocked.  “I don’t hate you, why-” I interupted him, “You’ve been really mean to me, like
why did you have to say that about me and Matt?” he didn’t answer.  “So you do hate
me” i began to head towards the door, when it flung open.
            “I’m gonna fucking kill you!” Matt yelled as he charged toward Derek.  “Dude
look, I had to, it was driving me crazy!”  After that I left. I returned to my bus and was
releived when no one was in there.  I quickly fell asleep.
             I woke up the next morning to breathing in my ear.  Barely opening my eyes, I had
seen Bri standing no more than an inch from my face.  “Sooooo.... is it true?” she asked. I
turned away and groaned. “What time is it?” “Thats unimportant, please tell me!!!!” I
knew what she was talking about but i didn’t want to answer. “I.... sure, whatever.”  She
wasn’t satisfied with my simple answer. “Come on, please just tell me! Please Please
Please!!!!” “Will you shut up?” “I can’t make any promises” “Thats better than nothing.
Well yeah i guess its true, but it matters what you had heard.” 
             I heard my phone go off, i dived for it but Bri had it first. I hate it when she does
this stuff. “Hello? *pause* yeah she’s right here *pause* no *pause* probably not
*pause* yes waffles, but what does that have to do with anything? *long pause* oh i get
it! *pause* ok fine” She handed me the phone.

           “Hello?” *pause* oh hey Matt *pause* why? *pause* ok i will, wait am i gonna
get hurt? * pause* ok just making sure” i hung up the phone and went into the main room
area.

I gasped..........

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I was in total shack, all i could manage to say was, “you do?” He didn’t answer, just
looked into my eyes. Someone had seen this when a voice called out, “oo what do we
have here?” Ibacked away from Matt. Not in a scared way, just nervous.

“Umm nothing?” i said questioning the air, trying to find the voice. I felt a tap on my
shoulder and turned around quickly, slapping whoever was in the darkness. “Shit!, first
the fly swatter now this?” i new automatically who it was, Derek.

“I’m sssooo sorry!”  i said still not sure to where he was. “Eh its cool, so do i see a love
triangle going on?” he asked in a flirtatious matter. Thank god it was dark, cuz i was
blushing red. Matt senced this and quickly said, “why would u think that?” I knew it was
the wrong thing to say as soon as it came out of his mouth.

“Oh i saw your little make-out fest” he said, i could tell he was smiling. “Well i’m gonna
go....” “Oh no u don’t, i have to announce this to everyone.” i went blank.
“hey matt?”
“yeah?”
"where’s that bitch girl that keeps coming back to u?”
I smiled at the thought of her uncontious body. “I kinda, well.... knocked her out.... but
she was asking for it! I mean don’t dish out wut u can’t take” Derek high-fived me. “The
bitch is dead!” he laughed.

“now off to tell the world!” he started to walk off. “Please don’t...” i asked, but not very
loudly. “ok, but no more attacks, ok?” “ok” i smiled then started walking back to my bus.
When i got on i was greeted by a crowd of smiling faces.

“what exactly do u know?” i asked kinda hoping, but kinda not that they would know.
“That u punched out that whore” I think travis said but not exactly sure. Ryan and
Marissa came towards me. “so are you ok?” they both asked with worried faces. “You
told her!” i asked kind of mad, but i knew i could trust her. “She had seen you walking
out of our bus and thought that i was cheating on her with you, so i had to tell her...” he
said looking at his feet.

“Its ok” i said with a smile on my face. I looked at Marissa, “ you know i’d never do that
to you.” She hugged me. “I just hope everything gets better.” she said now going back to
her seat. “Oh it already has....” i muttered with a smurk on my face.

Bri broke apart from her little make out fest long enough to say, “It has?” i thought no
one heard me, derek was standing by the door smiling. What was he so appy about? Matt
then walked in, all eyes wen’t directly from him, to me, to back to him. He got wide eyed.

:”what?!” he asked innocently. Derek was still smirking, he’s loving this to much. “Ok i
have an announcement to make....” he began walking into the middle of the room.
“Derek you promised!” i hissed at him.

“I know, but this is to good to keep to myself, ok as i was saying, Casey has made a little
love connection, can u guess with who?” he said still with that dumbass look on his face.
I could feel my face go red. 

“The one the only......”

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More tomorrow

You use me untill u find someone better
then u forget that u even had her.
Why can't you just accept me
for all that i can't be?
Do u even care at all?
Or do u just enjoy watching me fall

again and again....

Untill death do we stay
Then why do u forget my name?
Some people actually wonder why i cry
secretly wishing that i would die.
Its not that i'm clueless,
i just don't want to fell useless...

But why do i stay on your chain?
I can't help but to slit another vein.
Bleed out on the floor
I don't care anymore.....

One day is bright, the next minute is cold
i guess thats what you get from growing old

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Its crap, but i was bored and i wrote it about 5 minutes ago

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This one, well its.......umm...just read it....
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   He just stod there like he didn’t even here me. Thats when Jessie walked up behind
him. “Whats the bitch whining about now?” she whined while swinging around his arm.
He jerked away. “Jessie this is exactly why we never worked” he said now looking at her.
“what did i do?” she asked now glaring at me. “you can’t possibly like her” 

Matt began to say a comeback but i did instead. “whats so wrong with me?” i asked a
little hurt. “do i even have to say?” she snorted.  “Well i know i’m ugly but u can’t say
that” i said now stepping up to her. What can i say, i’m a fighter. “oo wut are u gonna do
cut me?” she laughed. i was now officially pissed off. I looked at matt, he had a wrooied
look on his face. Why?

“no, i won’t cut your ass. Your not worth it. But” i said my anger flaring. “But what
bitch?” she said with that air head face of hers. “I will do this” Its like i couldn’t contol
myself. I looked down at the uncontious body. I punched her. I started to run, but
someone caught up to me and held me back.

“Where do u think your going?” that person said. I didn’t look at him i just kept looking
at my bus. “anywhere but here...” “i’m not gonna let u kill yourself.” he said tryign to
make me look at him. I couldn’t, if i did i would cry.

“I never said i was going to kill myself” i murmured, now annoyed that everyone is
thinking that i’m suicidal. “but u almost did” he said with a hint of worry in his voice.
“I’d never kill myself over a stupid boy” i said still clueless to who i was talking to.

“So u think i’m stupid?” he asked. My mouth dropped, not matt, please God let it be
anyone but matt.

I turned around to face.....

You guessed it, Matt.

“No....” i said now wishing that i hadn’t turned around. He grabbed my face but i turned
away. Not now i though to myself. “So u really like me?” he asked still trying to make me
look at him.

I didn’t answer.  “Why won’t u talk to me?” he asked pleadingly. “cuz i just can’t” i
sighed. i finally looked at him. he seemed sad. “why?” “i just can’t” “you could if u tried”

I laughed. “you think i haven’t been trying?” “huh?” I shook my head. “see this is why i
can’t talk to u.” i started to walk away. He grabbed my arm again. Righ then a question
popped into my head.

“why didn’t you back me up?” i asked seeing tht he cared so much now, but not that
much then. “because i was....” he looked at his feet. “because u were what?” i asked back.
“ i was scared.” “why?”

“Because i....” ok this was getting old. Why can’t he just talk. He wanted me to talk, so i
am. Why can’t he?

“I...”

I then felt his face on mine. What was he doing? I knew it was a kiss, i’m not retarded.
We parted.

“i kinda.....um....” he screwed up his face. “like you”

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“um well i think i should tell you something....” matt said looking at his feet. “what is it?”
i asked hopefully. (by now i had feelings for him) “it was--” all of a sudden a girl came up
from behind matt and jumped on his back. “what the-- Jessie!” he said now looking at the
girl. “yeah..... i’ll just go” i said now kinda knowing what this was going to turn into. “no,
stay” he said without looking at me. “ i want you to meet my ex, jessie” “hi” i mumbled
looking at my feet. What can i say i get jealous easily. She laughed for a moment and
whispered something in his ear. “ofcourse not she’s only a friend”  he said now still not
looking at me.

My heart sank, i decided to go. He wouldn’t notice me go anyway.  Now the tears that
were harboring in my shallow eyes exploded onto my face. My walk turned into a run as i
ran towards my bus. I stood outside of it, i couldn’t go in, people would notice what
happened. I ran for the only person i had grown really good friends with that wasn’t
constantly on my bus.

I knocked on the Panic! at the disco bus and ryan answered, thank god. “holy- what
happened?””I don’t want to talk about it but i can’t go on my bus, not now.” he let me in
without any further questions. I sat down on ther coach with my head in my hands. “what
wrong with me?” i asked him, but he didn’t answered.  “i hate myself......” i said finally in
the silence, he was the only one on the bus. “why do u hate urself?” “cuz no one will ever
want me, i’m just a waste of skin” I started crying. i don’t know why i was telling him
about this i guess i needed to vent.

“is this about matt?” he asked. “huh?” i didn’t really beleive what he just said. “I know u
like him, its obvious” I didn’t answer, this only made me more sad that i’m obvious. “i
don’t know” i finally squeaked out. “ i guess i thought he was the only one who *i kinda
started mumbling after that*” “the only one who wut?” ryan now asked, then brendon
came in. “dude what happened?” “Thats what i was trying to figure out.” he said and
brendon sat down at the table in the kitchen area. “ he was the only one who cared” i said
as i stopped crying. “we care” brendon said obviously clueless to the subject. “i know,
but, ugh, its just complicated. I’m a girl, i don’t know what i’m feeling. * i put my head
back into my hands* i don’t deserve this on my birthday” i said now over my self caused
drama.

I walked off of their bus now dried up. I was walking back to my bus, as i stepped in i had
seen matt..... kissing that girl. I was about to have another breakdown but i held it in. Bri
then said, “Have u met jessie?” I ignored the question and walked into the room supposedly
called a bathroom. More like a closet. I could hear every word they were saying. “Whats
her problem” that jessie girl said in a semi-bitchy tone. “PMS?” sonny asked, aparently
bri hit him cuz i heard an oww. “ thats not funny, she’s not like this, something
happened...”

I heard a knock on the door. It was matt. “whats wrong?” he asked, i could tell he wasn’t
alone. “go away” i croaked. “No, tell me whats wrong.” “i can’t......*drip* *sniff*” “what
are u doing?!” “none of your business.....*a wincing noise*”  i said and yes i was
currently cutting myself. I know stupid,but thats how i role. “don’t make me break down
this door!” he said now getting angry and worried. “its not like u give a shit” “what are u
talking about?”  *THUMP*

“CASEY!!!!!! open this fucking door now!!” he said.............*no answer* “......casey?”
*he then pryed open the once locked door to find a frail body in a pool of blood*  “holy
shit!”  “what happened?” bri asked now coming to the opening of the door. “noooo!!”

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i woke up on a coach, not in a hopital tho, but in the venue where tomorrow’s show was
to be held. I looked down at my bandaged wrist. I saw 3 sleeping people, matt, brianna,
and sonny. Waiting for me to wake up. “what did i do this for, a stupid boy.....wow i have
lost it” i barelt said. thats when woke sonny up. i could tell he was about to scream. I gave him the be quiet
signal and he took me by my arm and led me outside.

“why did u do that?”  “you wouldn’t believe me if i told u” “try me”  I told him why and he
was so shocked. I think he was really clueless. I had seen a shadow and i turned to see
matt. My heart sank. “how much of that did u here?”

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sorry if it took so long, football games and life got in the way.

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The guy kind of hesitated with staying at his same position. “So know have u made your
decision?” the loud speaker boomed in my ear. “.....yeah i think so” i said reluctantly,
while biting my lip. “ so which contestant is the single man?” i waited in my seat until
they made me answer. “umm nuber four?” i said squirmishly. The crowd gasped.

I then knew that they knew something i didn’t. “you can take ur blind fold off
now........because your a winner!!!!!” all these different sounds went off and as i untied
the blindfold i heard someone running offstage. I opened my eyes to find the whole crowd
smiling at me. “ so wut do i win?” i asked outloud. I shouldnt have asked.

Just then a whole bunch of ppl dressed like old timy strip club workers cam around me
and picked me up. I screamed cuz i really don’t like ppl carrrying me the wy that they did.
They brought me outside where i saw the my manager. When the ppl sat me down i just
stood there. “.....wow, i get to see my manager”  Then the old guy who was aparently the
voice came out, “no, you’re prize is......” “yeah.....?” i said back now kind of bummed.
“You get to make a video!” “holy shit” i said to myself. All of the ppl at the party started
crowding around me asking whch song that i was doing. “ i’m not sure, cause i never
really thought about it” was all i could get out before ppl started telling me which one that
i should do. “i’m thinking about maybe umm.... ‘Creative only goes so far’ cuz it has
good guitar action in it” That satisfied them only a little bit.

After 20 minutes ppl started flooding back into the building. I was walking with a few
girl’s. “i never got to see the contestents” i said still walking. “well one of them were
sonny” Bri said smiling. “i could tell” i laughed because we all know his spazzy-ness.
Marissa then said “Ryan was the 3rd guy,  i can’t beleive he did that, it was so cute” she
then zoned out on me.  “ who was the 3rd guy?” i asked trying to avoid the forth guy.
“will”  they all said at the same time. We then reached the building, thank god.

~~~~~~~AFTER THE PARTY~~~~~~~~

“well that was probably the best party that i’ve ever had” i said as i sat down on a couch
on my tour bus. “”i can’t wait until u get to shoot your video” danielle said nearly dead.
Thats when matt came in the door at full speed. He was panting and sweating, then he
smiled when he had seen me. “come with me” he said trying to catch his breath. I just
looked at him. He gave me that ‘are u coming or not’ face. I got up and followed him
outside.

“so how did u like that umm... game?” he asked not looking at me. “ It was........awkward,
yeah thats the word” i said now looking at my feet, knowing that possible the 4th guy was
him. We in dead silence for about another 2 minutes. He then started saying something
but i cut him off.

“Well i know who all the guys are...” when i said that his eyes got big. “You do?” he
asked nervously. “yeah....” i said back to him seeing how he was going to act. He started
to say something again but i cut him off. “all of them except for number four” i said for
some reaseon. I guess i freaked out. He then smiled and relaxed a little bit. we walked in
silence for about 30 seconds.

When i asked the question his face was undesribable.

“so who was the 4th guy?”  i asked

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When i opened my eyes i had seen what i had least expected. You got it right, it looked
like i walked into a Panic at the disco video.  “ummm......?” was all i could sasy as i was
dragged up onto a stage. Someone came behind me and whispered into my ear, “well you
are 18 now, so this is technically legal” I didn’t turn around to see who it was, i was just
looking at the light that was blinding me cuz i’m stupid like that. 

Some one then gave me a microphone, i guess expecting me to say something. “umm wut
am i supposed to do?” i asked into the mic. someone yelled from the audience “ give us a
performance!” i didn’t know if he was kidding or not. “do u really want me to?” then alot
of people said “yeah” “ok well sry if i suck”

I then got my band together and asked if they wanted to, they said ok and went onstage to
tune everything and get ready.  I was so nervously and oh, it was my first time performing
infront of a crowd, besides 5th graders. I was in the middle of the stage why were they
making me perform..... on my birthday? i thought to myself as i was in a little circle with
the band. They were talking but i wasn’t listening. then they all broke away leaving me
standing there confused, “we’re going on now” someone had said to me. “oh! yeah i knew
that” i turned around waiting for the music to start. i could feel hundreds of eyeballs
staring at me.

The music started, thank god this song started off with the lead guitarist screaming. I then
knew that in about 3 seconds i would be singing. When it got to my part, i was suprised
that i didn’t choke, i guess i was just lucky.  I knew all of my actions but why was i acting
all spastic? oh well. We finally got to the end of the song and everyone screamed, i
walked off the stage nervously afraid of what everyone was thinking.

The whole crowd of girl who always circled around wwere basically twitching from
excitement. “omg u were really good” someone said, it was too dark to tell. “thanks, i
didn’t think i was that good but thanks”  Just then someone picked me up from behind
and blind folded me. I don’t like not knowing what am being put up to.  “now casey, u
don’t know what we’re going to do to u so u should be scared” a voice boomed over the
speakers, it sounded like sonny, then it sounded like someone stole the mic from him.
“ ok well to get your prize that we have in store for u, you have to play a little game” it
sounded like a regular guy, not anyone’s voice that i could remember.

I smiled when i heard this. “so what do i have to do?” i asked out loud, people started
lauging, someone was doing something around me. The man then said “well lets see your
a pretty young lady, are u single?” I really didn’t want to answer. “why?” i answered back
nervously. “Because that will depict what kind of game we play” “yeah i’m single” i
answered now knowing what i was getting myself into. “good, now we can go on with
our original plan. We have 4 guys here...” please tell me i’m not gonna do what i think
i’m about to do.  “1 of them are single the other 3 have girlfriends tht i have been
informes are your friends” I heard giggles from the crowd.  “Now the rules to the game
are pretty simple, there are 2 rounds, 1 where the guys do stuff to u, and the other u get to
do stuff to the guys.” i then heard more giggles and a wooh.  “if u guess who the single
guy is, u win the mystery prize, do u undeerstand the rules” “yeah...” i said now, not
wanting to be in that chair anymore. “then let the game begin!”

The first round started, the first guy did somethind weird to my face, he also ran around
me screaming. I had a feeling that it was sonny. It seemed like him. The second guy to his
time, aparently his girlfriend--if he had one-- didn’t care what he did, he kissed me cheek,
and licked my shoe. When he did that people laughed. The third guy sat on me, he didn’t
weigh that much, he said “well santa i want a train, a guitar....” then someone pushed him
off of me, i think it was the fourth guy.

The fourth guy did something different than everyone else, i dunno why, but he made out
with me.  The whole time that we were kissing the crowd was going crazy. I was thinking
to myself that this was the single guy. He got off of me and the loud voice said “well that
was an interesting choice, but whatever floats your boat, ok time for round to. the guys
are gonna stand infront of u while u do wutever u want to them” the 1st guy was definetly
sonny, i felt his face and his hair. When i knew who he was for sure i pokes his nose and
smiled. the 2nd guy i felt his face and had no clue who he was, it felt kind like brendon,
but i didn’t think it was. the 3rd guy was ryan, for sure. The 4th guy i couldn’t tell who he
was, but he smelled good.

“have your decision yet?” the voice sid over the speakers. “i think so....” said now still
trying to pick between the good smelling guy and the other dude. “can i see the 4th dude
again?” i asked out loud. “sure” The guy cam over to me and put his face really close to
mine, i felt his lip--- it had a ring.

“ it can’t be...” i said under my breath.

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     I rushed outside towards the screaming. “OH MY GOD CASEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!” It was
hannah, i hadn’t seen her in like ever. We went back a long way, i had known her from
1st grade till the 7th, then she moved away. I hadn’t seen her till now. “holy crap” was all
i could say. “you have your own tour bus!?” she seemed really excited. “yeah, and i just
got done recording my record” “thats sssssssssoooooooooo cool”    She hasn’t changed
one bit, well except she looks a little bit more filled out, but thats beside the point.

     I brought her onto the bus where she had seen bri sitting there. They both screemed and
everyone had a big happy little reunion. Out of nowhere she asked “today’s your birthday
isn’t it?” i nodded. “see i remembered!” she brought me a little card. “thanks” i said now
putting it into my bunk along with the other things, and *gulp* snakes.

     “Ok where is it?!” i asked outloud in a panicked tone. “where’s what?” was the only
answer i got. I came out of the room with a worried look on my face, “the snakes” Thats
when 5 girls screemed and jump up onto the couches, tables, and chairs. Great... was all
that i could think. I was standing there looking in the cabinets for them when i felt
something on my leg. I screemed, probably the loudest scream ever. “GET IT OFF OF
ME!!!!!!!!!” i jump around with 2 snakes arounf my leg. “calm down, here” matt then got
them off of me and held them. “I thought you liked snakes?” “i do, just not when they are
free, on a bus.” He then put them back into their home.

       “thanks for making me def” sonny muttered now playing with his ear. “you really need to
stop screaming” “neh i’m good at screaming so i think i’ll keep it” i said now jumping off
of the bus and onto the outside pavement. “i feel like running” i said now running and
jumping in every direction. I’m weird like that. I then heard laughter, i turned toward the
buses to find a crowd staring at me. It wasn’t only the guys from ffttl, and fobn, but all the
guys from the academy is and panic! at the disco were staring at me, pointing and
laughing. “so... um... how long hav you guys been standing there?” i asked hoping for
only a few seconds. “long enough!” is what pete said causing everyone to laugh again.

        “well we came to get you for the party we set up for u, but this time we won’t have any
unlabelled drinks” ryan said between laughs. “great now i feel like an ass” i said now
walking back onto the bus. I found sonny and bri making out on the couch when i came
in, then they started laughing. “That was a nice little dance you had there” derek said
between laughs. “ok we get it, i’m a retard” i said now red with embarassmemt. “ok lets
go, cuz we hav a party to get to” someone yelled from outside. 

        Everyone immediately left the bus, that is, except for me and matt. “you can go ahead and go cuz i’m not done getting ready yet.” i said from the bathroom now relining my eyes with eyeliner. “no i can wait, plus its your birthday.” he said still sitting in the main area of the
bus. Boys have it easy, whatever they wear they look good in. On the other hand i hav to
straighten, line, and make-up everything to look good.  “ok its ur choice” i said now
straightening my hair.

        I was finally done with everything and took one last look in the mirror, eh i look ok. I came out of the bathroom, matt was playing on his sidekick, he just received a message that made him laugh. "what was that all about?" i asked now coming over to him. He looked up from his sidekick, his eyes widened and he quickly closed it and shoved it into his pocket. "nothing..." he lied. He's one of the worst liers on earth. "ok fine don't tell me" i pouted and gave him the puppy face. "even though its my birthday" 

        He sat beside me and hugged me. "You'll be happier if i don't tell u" he said with a smile on my face. I smiled at his smile. "ok i guess i beleive u." i got up and started for the door. "but we have to go now, so hurry up gah!" i did a napolian dynamite impression with the 'so hurry up, gah!' part.  We were walking down the line of buses till we found a building which matt told me was where the party was going to be.

         I opened the door and imediately knew what was so funny on matt's message.
"oh my god" i laughed. Then someone grabbed me by my arm and dragged me into the building.......

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“umm.........” i said not sure if it would screw up what we had between us. “oh i get it.” he
looked disapointed. I had to make the 1st move, damnit. “ok yeah i did mean what i said
and i know that u don’t feel the same way about me and that ok with me” i ran out of the
bus nearly in tears. I heard someone coming after me, thats when i ran. But ofcourse me
being me had to run into something, more like a wall. “How the hell did i miss that?” i
said outloud now with a worse headache than before.

“.......CASEY!!!!!!” i heard a faint yell in the distance. I turned to look at who it was- it
was matt. Crap now i have to face him. I waited till he got there. “are you ok?” he asked
now seeing me fully in tears, the wall kinda caused the full water workd. “yeah *sniff*
i’m fine” “no your not, your crying” “.....*sniff * so” “ well why?” “well it could have
somthing to do with running my head into the wall or maybe spilling my guts out.”
“huh?” “gah its useless trying to talk to anyone!” i then tried to run away but he had me
by my arm. “ let go! * i was no crying hard for some unknown reason*” “no i won’t until
u feel better” he was now holding me, i just bawled into his chest (oo lol) until nothing
was left to come out.  “*sniff* its just that everyone else in the world has someone, and i
don’t even hav anyone, and look i’m crying and tomorrows my birthday” “thats right your
turning 18 tomorrow right?” “ *sniff* yeah” “ well i think you need to get some sleep for
tomorrow, i hav something planned for u”

 I went to the bus and layed down, but i couldn’t sleep. Not now, not by what i just told
him.......* i fell asleep*

********tomorrow*******

“WAKE UP!!!!!!” it was bri yelling and jumping up and down on top of me. “*groans*
ok i’m up”   I went into the bathroom and stood there for atleast 5 minutes just looking
blankly into the mirror. “are you dead or did you fall asleep again?” i snaped out of it. “oh
yeah umm i’m awake.” i opened the door it was brendon. “i heard about your issue last
night, sorry about that.” “its not like its your fault” “uh yeah  i guess....” “ok i don’t want
to know *laughs*”  I then had seen matt “ guess what?” “what?” “your 18” “oo shocker
there” gah i’m a smart-ass. “ i luv smart-asses”  he said now coming towards me. “hey i
got u something” he gave me a box, it was pretty big. “ ooh i wonder what it is *shakes
it” “ i would shake it if i were u.” “why?” “just open it” “k fine” i said now opening the
box.
“aww matt you got me...... snakes?” i said now looking through the container at them.
“yeah do u like them?” “i luv them” he smiled like he accomplished something. “So are
you to like together now?” someone asked, aparently we both ignored the question. “fine
then don’t answer me”  ok i won’t i thought to myself thanking god that matt didn’t say
anything. today was going to be a good day, no drama..... well atleast i hope.

“OH MY GOD!!!!!!!” someone screamed from outside, damn i spoke to soon

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    “Um..no one...”i said now brushing past him and over to the drink table. Which
one’s are acoholic and which ones are not? i thought to myself now picking up a pretty
bottle with no label on it. “it doesn’t taste like it has acohol in it” i said aloud but no one
heard me. There was only one problem, it did contain infact alcohol.  I had a few more
because i was really bored.

      “Are you ok?” bri finally asked me. “yeah” i slurred. “did u drink something?”
“*hiccup* no, why do u think that?” i asked now falling onto the floor. I aparently really
loudly and everyone was looking at me. “SHE’S DRUNK!” i heard someone yell from
the back. I got up and walked well stumbled over to matt, by now everyone was back to
their normal stuff and wasn’t staring at me. “Hey” he said looking at me. “hi” i said
smiling. “what?” he asked. “your just so darn cute!” i said in a weird voice that made him
laugh. “really? cuz i don’t think so.” he said back to me. “well *hiccup* duh, ur hot and
have the prettiest eyes in the world” i said now notbeing able to controll my thoughts. “u
really think that?” “yeah” he then kissed me out of nowhere. And ofcourse me being
drunk couldn’t cntrol myself to him. “OH MY GOD! i knew it!” I heard bri yell now
pointing at me and matt, i then felt like i was about to puke and i left.

    *puke noises* i was leaning over the toilet, and i heard a knock on the door. “are
you ok?” someone asked. “ye- *puke* nevermind *cough puke* damnit!” “i’m coming in
cuz this doesn’t sound too good” that person said now entering. It was ryan. “damn casey
what did u eat?” he asked me. “nothing i just drank a few of well i dunno, it wasn’t
labled. *gag* wut was it?” “beer, well more of whiskey” “woah” i said back now notiving
that i was drunk thus causing the over excesive amout of puking. “Well i’m gonna go get
the other guys, cuz they know more about this than i do” then he left.

         About 5 minutes later 4 other guys came in, they told me wut to do to help my
‘puking’ problem. I was amazed  that i wasn’t getting yeld at but wutever. I then aparently
passed out.

*****************few hours later*********************

    “she’s up!” i heard several ppl say as i opened my eyes slowely.  “oh here take these”
Marissa said handing me some pills. “ok....” i said back grogily. “Where’s Sonny?” i
asked seeing that everyone was here, that is, exept for bri and sonny. “Oh probably on our
bus” travis said to me with a disgusted look on his face, “No telling what their doing”
“Oh i get it, but i don’t think that she’d go that far.” i said, to particularly no one. “trust
me sonny has his ways, its like he’s magic” derek said.  I was beginning to feel better
when i remembered that i told matt a  few things, ugh now the stomach! I rushed to the
bathroom.  “thats nice....” i heard a girl say from where i was sitting. 

 
     When i finally came out of the bathroom only matt was there, he didn’t notice me
untill i asked where everyone went. “back to the party” was his response.  “oh i see” i said
now sitting uneasily beside him. “I know you were drunk and everything but, do u
remember what you said to me? you know at the party?” “.......yeah” “well
um............................did you mean it? cuz i completely undertand if you didn’t cuz you
were drunk and all..........”  “well.....................” 

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   When i opened the door i didn’t see anyone then BOO! someone came up from behind me
 it was matt. “Hey matty!” i said as i hugged him, he picked me up, cuz he knows i like it
when they do that. “So are you coming to the party tonight?” he asked me with a smile on
his face. “What party?” i asked confuzzled. “The one for the beginning of warped tour,
well aparently since you don’t know i’ll tell you. The party's tonight at 9:00, everyones
gonna be there. So are you coming?”  “duh” i said with that ‘well what do you think’
tone. “Good!” he said back.  
      I then walked back onto the bus to find everyone looking at me, “So did any of
you know about this party?” i asked to anyone who would care, “Derek told me about it,
did u not know?” Danielle said. Then the rest of my band said no along with me. “Matt
just told me so its all good.”  I then heard very loud giggles from the bunkroom, i put my
ear against the door, what were they doing? I didn’t really want to know but i walked in
anways.  “It burns!!!!” i screamed covering my eyes and running out of the bunkroom. “we
weren’t doing anything gah!” sonny screamed back now coming out of the room. “haha i
know i just wanted to wake everyone up” i said half way sarcasticly. Bri then came out
with her face fully red from embarrassement. Everyone just stared blankly at her. “well
we have to start getting ready for the party” i said, “wut party” Bri asked confused.
“sonny you explain it to your little play mate while the rest of us get ready” i said now
walking into the bathroom to re-do my make up. “ooo that was a burn” i heard someone
say from the other room. 

An hour later

     Everyone was ready, so we headed over towards From first to last’s bus since we
didn’t know where to go. I knocked and matt opened the door, “hey---wow-- oh um, yeah
follow me” he said, now walking towards a building. Apparently he was the only one left
in the bus. He opened the door and let everyone in, there was alot of ppl there and well
drinks. This would be my first time going to a, as i call them grown-up parties.  I had seen
a crowd of girls and when they saw me they all screamed ‘CASEY!!!!!: and ran towards
me at the same time.  All of the band guy’s girlfriends were there hugging me, keilee,
sarah-ann, hollie, karla, samantha, Abby, Athena, Marissa, Katy, and Serenity.  “so how
has everyone been?” i asked. “Well......” about three of them held out their hands which
now currently had rings on the fingers. “what, when did this happen?” i asked astonished
at how many 18-20 year old girls were now engaged. “a few weeks ago” Marissa
answered full blown blushing. “here everyone is, getting married, and i can’t even get a
freakin boyfriend” i said playing around. “oo i don’t know to much about that, if i didn’t
know any better i’d say u and matt where a couple” Serenity said, beginning the song
“Matty and Casey sitting in a tree K-I-S-S-I-N-G!!”   I was blushing and aparently they
could tell. “You do like him don’t you?!” they laughed/asked.

 Right then Matt came up from out of nowhere and asked, “you like who?”  Holy
shit was all i could think, “Um......”

Should i tell him? Or should i not? Gah always questions but no answers.

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    “Crap!” we all said at the same time when we were examning the damage, Danielle had a
spranged ankle but that was worst injury that anyone had, i guess we were lucky. I called
911 and told them wut had happened, they told us to stay where we were and to not move
anything. When the police arrived they asked if we had insurance, thankfully we did, i
guess thats wut you get for picking the most responsible (not to mention fairl unatractive)
manager.
     We had a taki come pick us up, i called matt and told him wut happened, i heard
Sonny say in the background, well more like scream “Holy shit! is bri ok?” “sonny i’m
talking--” matt said. “i don’t give a shit just ask casey if Bri’s ok!” “Ok gah... well sonny
wants to know if everyone’s ok, well more specifically bri.” “yeah we’re all good,
danielle sprang her ankle thats it” “well thats good......so do u know how much bri heard
of our conversation?” “nope, she hasn’t mentioned it yet, but she’ll probably wake me up
at 3:00 in the morning and ask me about it cuz she’s weird like that”  “ok well......” “crap!
my phone is dying agai--” it died, but i think he got the point.

XXX 2 months laterXXX

   Today we would finish th record and tie up the loose ends, gah i’m so nervous. We
recorded most of the album without the guys because of the tour, but someties i got to
play and we rocked. I’ve signed 117 signature, and yes i do keep track thank you very
much. I’ve been happier lately so that was good, i think it showed on the record.  Since
our van crash, we got a tour bus, my parents and a few other ppl’s parents paid for it, cuz
we didn’t have money and we really needed one.  I’m turning 18 on September 5th (yes
thats my actaul birthday in real life) i’m so excited, then i can date ppl, cuz i get harrased
even for the thought of going out with some of these guys.  Matt said he would wait for
me after i told him i couldn’t go out with him because of the age issue, thats what our
little talk was about, well mainly.
      Today patrick and Pete were coming over to preveiw the record, “Thats
awesome!: Pete said, i think thats the 1st positive thing that he has said to me. “I like how
you say ass....” he added now looking off into space. “ook..... thats nice to know, so when
is it coming out?” “next week.” NEXT WEKK?” everyone screamed at once. “yes, as we
said next week. And now since recording is done, its time to tour warped style!” it took
me a few seconds to get it but then a lightbulb hit me “we’re going on warped tour?” “uh
yeah...” “COOL!” i said now jumping on him, “its nice to see you happy.” “yeah i have
my waves of happyness every now and then, well when do we start touring?” “tomorow,
here” “well i guess we need to go pack” and at that i was out the door.
     Bri and Danielle were my official merch girls, even tho we didn’t really hav
much, but i like company. We were packed and got on our tour bus, i liked the smell of it,
like a new car. Then i noticed someone was on it, he jumped out it was sonny. Him a bri
automatically started making out, i stared at them, damn. “get a room,” i said playfully at
them. “ok we will” he said with a smile on his face, and headed off to the bunkroom.

   Everything was good, i heard my ringtone, yay someone's texting me it said : come outside. It was a blocked number so i didn't know who it was, i opened the door to go outside and..........................

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    “…………casey………casey?…. Is she ” breathing?………..CASEY!!!!” I heard some people say, I was awake I just didn’t want to open my eyes. “yeah she’s breathing…… “ then someone slapped me. “what the hell did you do that for??!!” I sat up really pissed off. “SHIT!!!!” I was now holding my head and crying. “are you ok?” “…..no…..” was all I could get out. “let me see what happened…… you have to move your hand” I moved me hand off of the corner of my head, “damn….” someone said. “what is it?” I asked between sobs. “nothing that big, just a scratch” I got up and looked in the nearest mirror I could find. “You call that a scratch!? Its more like a freaking battle wound!” “sry I was trying to make it better” “its ok I guess, just get me a band-aid and I’ll be ok.”

       A few minutes later I was good to go, except for this headache, but I can get through this. We were recording another song, in the middle of the verse I collapsed, gah I passed out again. “dude what this time?!” I heard someone yell, its weird how I can hear everything that they say. “casey wake up….” “I’m up! I’m good, yeah nothing big.” I got up then fell again. I looked at my legs, why weren’t they working. “are u ok?” “I’m not sure” I said now looking up at the many people staring at me. “I think u need to go to the hospital just to get checked out.” matt said now helping me up, well more like carrying me. “ok matt u take her and we’ll stay here and record the music. Ok?” “yeah that’s fine” We then went to a hospital, apparently I was dehydrated, and the headache I was forming had taken most of my energy away. They gave me some pills and told me to take them and drink a lot of water and I should get better.

       I was now sitting on a couch at the recording studio, every 5 seconds ppl asked me if I was ok, it was really getting on my nerves. Plus now they wouldn’t let me do anything. I was ok now but they didn’t believe me, I went outside where it was raining, I didn’t really care if I got wet, seeing that I wasn’t going to do much today. I was just standing there, in the rain, dripping wet. Did anyone notice I was missing? I asked myself. I decided to walk, not far, but just around the corner of the building. That’s when I heard someone call my name “Casey?!!!!!!!!!” it sounded like Bri. “Are you out here?” I didn’t answer I just walked back to the front door, she was gone by then. I walked back into the room, great now everyone was staring at me. “what?” I asked. “why are you wet?” “Because its raining outside duh” I was bitchy now, and apparently it showed. “well we’ve done enough for today, everyone should go home and get some rest” Patrick said.

       I was the first one into the van, shocker. “whats the matter? Bri asked now in the seat in front off me, all I could see was her eyes. “nothing really, just kinda pissed that I didn’t get to do anything today” “well if it wasn’t for andy’s foot---” “he tripped me?!” I interrupted her. “well yeah but it was an accident, I swear.” “ok well I guess if in not dead I’m ok” I laughed for some reason, cuz that’s just what I do. I spoke to soon………………………………...................................................

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 ~*~*~*     Ok, i'm letting you guess what he's saying on the other end of the phone, the *pauses*   mean that he's talking ~*~*~*~~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

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    *pause* "um...." i said, i was literally speechless form what he said. *another pause* "no its not like that at all--" *pause*  "you're putting words in my mouth cuz i never said that i didn't like you" *pause* "yeah....." *a very long pause* yeah i was about to say the same thing" *short pause* "Yeah i think we should talk about this in person so i'll see u tomorrow at the recording studio?" *pause* "ok bye"

   I walked into the kitchen area and got me something to drink, then Bri popped up with a smile on her face "so what was that all about?" she said playfully. "Oh nothing" i lied due to the smile on my face. "Something happened i now it did, cuz i haven't seen you smile that big in forever" she said. Damnit i guess i'll tell her, or maybe i won't. I'm the kinda girl that feels like i can't trust anyone, not even my bestest friend of all time. "ummmm..... i don't really know wut happened, but we have to go to sleep, i still hav a record to make" i said this as i passed her and jumped on my bed. "wutever" i heard her say as she went into the other room. "I hav my ways of finding out everything and u know that."   I was too tired to come back at her, and plus she was right. Its like she had super powers or something.

    I woke up to the alarm clock, i usually don't but i'm glad i did cuz now i can get ready.  I took a shower and fixed up everything that needed fixing on me. Now i hav to choose what to wear, hmm.... i can't wear a fftl shirt, a p!atd one, or a fob one cuz that would be cheesy. I settled on my underoath one that has been worn way to much, but hey its comfortable.  I also wore some torn up jeans and my converse,  Bri was already ready and was going out the door, i followed after i got all my lyrics and stuff.  As we arrived to the place, everyone was standing outside. "why is everyone standing outside?" i asked, cuz i like to state the obvious. "Because we want to, no, we're locked out." said pete, i don't think he likes me that much, or either he's really pissed. "ok i was just asking....." i said now looking at my feet.

    I then walked back to our van, i do that when i get moody, i walk away from my problems. I then got my ipod and turned in up really loud to where i couldn't hear anyone. I then sat down next to the van leaning up against it in clear view of everyone. They were all staring, i then saw Matt coming towards me, damn why does he hav to care so much. He was saying something but i could hear him, "WUT?" i said, not knowing how loud i was talking. He then took out the earphones, "can we talk now?" he asked, "*sigh* i guess so." i said now getting up, we walked over to the other side of the building. Little did we know we had little eavesdroppers.

"Oh My God!!!" i heard a girl scream, i then saw someone hiding. It was bri, greeeaaat.   "So this is wuts happening? i see" she now was dancing around us. "it open!!!" someone yelled, we then went inside to record. I then tripped and hit my head on something, everything went black...............

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    She looked around to see if we where in hearing range of anyone. "he said something about u 2 hooking up or whatever," she said in my ear. "oh really now?" i said with a smirk on my face, thank god no one had seen it. Sonny and Matt were about 5 feet infront of me and Bri and were talking, matt had his arms crossed leaning over to his right so that he could hear sonny, cuz we all know he's not a giant.

    The line started moving and it was our turn to ride the scrambler (if u don't know wut that is i'm sorry). "Who am i riding with?" i asked about 5 second before we got to the gate. "well i guess that would be kinda obvious cuz i'm sure as hell not riding with sonny" matt said back to me as we got into the seat thing. Sonny and Bri were in the one infront of us.  "i'll try not to squish you" i said looking at the bar. " I don't think thats even possible" he said back to me with a smile, then he kissed me on the cheek. I turned my head not wanting him to notice that i was blushing..... really badly. But he noticed anyway and laughed a little bit, thats when the ride started. I felt so uncomfortable during that whole ride, like i felt like i was squishing him, but he didn't seem to care.

    As soon as that ride stopped i got out like really fast and my foot got caught on the step thing and i fell. Kinda half way dangling but with my hands on the ground.  For some reason i was laughing, i laugh when i'm in pain sometimes."dude that looks like it hurts" matt said scratching his head at me laughing. "yeah it does" i barely got out through the laughs. gah i'm weird. Finally somebody helped me up after about a minute of pure embarrassement and stares. "are you ok?" everybody kept asking me, because of the weird position i was in, but hey i'm flexible. " yeah i'm flexible so i can like withstand anything" i said then i put my foot in a wierd place. "see?"  "ok mrs. bends alot, lets go" "ok"

a few hours later we left.

 The drive back was, well entertaining. Sonny almost hit something and then Matt got to drive, he's way better at it. Then this song came on that we all knew i should've had a video camera, that was like a perfect moment. When we got back to our hotel the boys said bye to us, nothing special, just good nights and well there was a little something between bri and sonny. Damn they move fast. Well bri wanted to stay the night with me so i let her, it was like a sleepover-ish thing but different.

  My phone rang, i looked at it. It was matt. "hello?" i said into the phone, then bri took it away. She ran into the bathroom and locked the door. I could hear everything she was saying. I hate it when ppl take my phone. *BANG BANG!!* "Give me back my phone!" i said into the door that i knew wasn't going to open. "neverrrrrrrr!" Bri said back playfully. I then acted like i went away, but i didn't i stuck my ear to the door and listened.

    "so wuts up with you and Casey?" i heard her say as quietly as she could which was still pretty loud. "oh really? i think not"  gah she's making me mad. "u know u like her, i just know it. *pause* i don't care wut you say *pause* i don't know if she likes u or not, plus she doesn't tell me stuff like that, she's different than your average girl * long pause* why? *longer pause* that isn't a good enough reason * pause* ok fine"  She unlocked the door and i fell ontop of her. "here" she grunted and handed me my phone. "he wants to talk to you" i got off of her and took the phone and went into the main room and sat on the couch.

"hey...."

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                     we have reached the double digits!

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    "What kinda stuff do u wanna talk about?" i asked. "umm....hmm.... i guess, um... tell me about ur self." he said trying to get comfortable still holding my hand. At that moment Sonny turned around and saw us holding hands, he imediately turned back around and told Bri something. I just shook off the thought. "oh um ok." i paused thinking of wut to say. "well wut kinda stuff do u want to know about me?" "i don't care u can tell me whatever u want" "ok well I'm Casey as u already know, um yeah my birthday is September 5th.....umm...." "have you ever had an eating disorter?" he asked wow that came out of nowhere  i thought to myself, he saw me look down and then he said "you don't have to answer if u don't want to."

  "No its ok, i'm just not proud of it thats all. well i was anorexic, cuz i guess i felt like i was fat, i dunno, but at that time i felt like shit  with my life and well used." " when were u, ya know" he said now sounding like he's ashamed for starting this topic. "12 or 13 is when i started, it kinda got carried on into like 15 and 16 but then ppl started to notice that i wasn't eating, then my parents cared." "thats a young age to do that" "i know"  *awkward silence*

   "Its sure taking them a long time to fix this" i said while looking around. "yeah" i could feel him staring at me. I then turned and my face was almost touching his. His eyes widened, i smirked then said. "now, tell me Mr. Good.......*makes my spy agent face* a little something about you."   He laughed for some reason, then we talked about him for a few minutes then....CLONK!  I screamed again, and aparently slapped matt in the face. "omg i'm so sorry" i said looking at him holding his face. " damn u got some power!" he said now releasing his face from his hands. "*laugh* i know"

The ride started moving again.....

as we got off, we met back up with Sonny and Bri. "man what happened to you" sonny said pointing towards his face. "Casey got a little freaked out and kinda wammed me in the face" he said now blushing. "oh ok" he said now looking at me. "good job."   We then walked towards another ride, as we were walking Bri asked "so wut did you talk about?" "Nothing really...." i said back aparently not satisfying her curiosity. "well wut did u and sonny talk about" "we didn't talk..." she now giggled. I got her point.

    Thats when a girl cam over and said something to sonny, aparently they knew eachother. "And who would that be?" Bri asked with a hint of jealousy in her voice. "Oh that Vivian, she works her sometimes. Don't worry we're just friends" he said now kissing her cheek. "good" she said back now smiling.

    We continued walking then we got in a line, not really caring wut ride we were riding next i whispered to bri "so when sonny turned around and looked at me and matt wut did he tell you?"  She looked as if she wasn't sure whether or not to tell me.

"Well..."

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     *swoosh* I screamed, as soon as the door opened a clown face was 2 centimeters away from my face. "Where going to a carnival!" sonny screamed, he looked really happy.  "Cool" i said now walking past the clown, who was still standing in the same position.  Bri was standing in the lobby with Matt, they looked really annoyed at the clown who was constantly laughing in their ears. When Matt had seen me he smiled, "So this is my suprise date" he said now grabbing my cheeks. "Yup i guess so" i said back as a car pulled up infront of us. We climbed in, Sonny was driving......great.

     We were riding to wherever Sonny was driving us, well i guess u could call wut he's doing driving.  After about 15 minutes of silence and the occasional cuss word complaining about Sonny's driving, i said "so..... what are we going to do?" openly, then we all looked towards sonny, who planned this all. "Oh! well when we get there we're riding the ferris wheel first" "ferris wheels are so stupid but wutever" i said, cuz they are lame. "It will be fun, come on smile!" Matt said now pushing my cheeks to make me smile. "Ok i will smile *smiles* i'm just thinking" "about wut?" "Nothing important, so how much longer till we get there?" i asked now trying to change the subject. "About 30 seconds" sonny said now pulling into the parking lot.

     As soon as the car stopped we jumped out, not literally but u know wut i mean. After we paid our way to get in, we headed toward the ferris wheel, I've never rode one with a guy before I thought to myself. We stood in line for about 5 minutes, none of us talked.  Then it came time for us to get on, ofcourse bri and sonny went on one, them me and matt on the one behind them. 

     While the rest of the ride was loading Sonny turned around and tried to talk to us but we could understand him. He also was rocking the seat, man he's so spastic i thought to myself. Then matt aked"areyou having fun?" he asked now looking kind of sad but trying to hide it. "Yeah i'm having fun but i like the scaary rides more than this one." I said now laughing, remembering something from a week ago. "are u ok?" matt asked now laughing because of how i laughed. "yeah i'm fine *laugh* I just remembered something that happened last week, cuz i'm weird like that" I laughed one last time then i was holding it back. "thats cute" he said. "Yeah i guess" i said now not being able to hold it back anymore. We both laughed about really nothing for a few minutes, still the damn ride didn't start. "what ar ewe laughing about again?" he asked. "I *that noise you make trying to hold back a laugh* don't know"

    "What the hell is so funny?" sonny asked, i think he's been watching us for a while. "what?" i yelled back. "What the *clonk*" the ferris wheel finally started. I screamed because it scared me. "are yo ok?" matt asked now hold my hand. He saw me looking at our hands and he pulled away quickly. "yeah i'm ok....." i said back now having the feeling that i liked holding hands. "you can hold my hand if you want to" i said not look at him. He smiled and held my hand.  *Clonk!* the ferris wheel stopped. I screamed again,  then said "i've never been stuck on a ferris wheel before" "it'll be ok, they'll fix it soon" "i hope so" "well that means i guess i can finally talk to you"

Now i'm confused, what was he gonna talk about?

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was this one good?

      I opened the door, it was Bri..... she was smiling. It was a freaky smile, then it went away when i said "are you ok?" "yeah! i'm fine" she replied. God she's hyper again, oh and her partner in hyperness crime, Sonny I thought to myself now seeing that freaky smile on his face too, except his didn't go away for a while. "uh....yeah.... your starting to scare me..." i said, now 2 minutes into just staring at each other. "Oh! ok, lets see.... Sonny tell her! tell her, tell her, tell her!" " Guess what?!" "What?" "chickenbutt!" he laughed at this for a second. "no really you need to get ready because someone has a date tonight!" "who?" "you'' 

    Now i'm officially confused. "umm....ok?" i said. "Well its not a date date, its a double date, with me and bri" sonny said apparently seeing that i had no clue to what they were talking about. "But who am i going with?" "Matt" "ok so where are we going?" "Somewhere secret" Bri said now playing with sonny's hair. They're so cute together.  "well hurry up we leave in an hour, we'll come by your room to get you ok?" "ok" i said. I left them standing in the hallway, why am i going on a date? well its not a date date but its still a date. I wonder where we're going?

    I now have taken a shower and dried my hair. In the middle of doing my make up, there was a knock on the door. It was Sonny and only Sonny. "AHHH!!!!" he said sheilding his eyes. "its not that bad all i hav to do is fix one eye" i said walking back into the room, then when i finished my make up. "thats better" he said smiling. "so is it time to go?" i asked. "why are u eager?" he said smirking. "no" i said laughing. He looked disapointed. "Don't be sad, i'm excited" "yay! ok lets go" he grabbed me by my hand and was running. " Dude slow down!" i said playing. He just kept running, then we got into an elevator,

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sry i would write more but i hav to go